If you have read this blog before you know my story...it's like anyone else's...full of words. I've been trying to come back to this place to write, to release...yet it's been difficult to find the words. Like so many of you my life has been upside down and all around...I've written about dark places. I've written about finding light. I've written about blessings. I've written about pain. I've written about love lost and love found. I've written about beauty and I have written about ugliness. Why has it been so hard for me to come back and write more? Have I been afraid to share what's on my heart? Have I decided that some things are better left private? Or have I just not been able to find the words? None of those questions on their own holds the entire answer...however when combined I can see the answer.
I was not sure how to "re -enter" my own writing space...writing that sentence is suprising to me...afterall it's MY space...these are MY words...I guess it is like anything else...if you venture off the path long enough you may lose your way. I wouldn't say that I have been lost these past 5 months. I actually think that I have found myself...off the beaten path...
It seems I just could not find the words to share the experience. Maybe this experience was one not meant to be shared?
The reason behind my absence really isn't important. What is important is that I know I want to write again. While the past three years I have been journaling a lot about my struggles and my source of strength, I am turning the page and seeing a new chapter to write about. I am excited to see where this new chapter takes me. I look forward to sharing new experiences with you, perhaps in a different way...
So if you are a returning reader and you see a change in style, remember the author is still the same. The dreams are still the same. The book is even the same...the page has just been turned.
-JAH
Words they'll try to shake you
Don't let them break you or stop your world
Stop your world from turning 'round
When words keep you from feeling good
Use them as firewood and let them burn
Let them burn, let them burn
-Words by Train
